unimportant thought update

I'm really not feeling all that great today, I can't really explain why, but today was just a really horrible day.

I feel as though I'm not able to do anything right, like everything I do is just hopeless, what's more is that I still feel ridiculously stressed about what happened today at work... Even though it's been over for a good eight hours already I just can't shake it and it's kind of really getting to me...

Babbeling about thoughts

I'm going to write this here because I want to get it out, but I don't want everyone to see this, and I know how many people see my blog on an average basis. It's not many haha.

Anyway.

I just want to say, I'm really happy at the moment... kind of scared shitless that it's going to end the same way it normally does, but really freaking happy. I haven't felt like this in a very long time, I'm not going to go as far as saying "My life now has purpose" though, because it still doesn't, but I have an even bigger reason not to just one day stop existing... Yeah, I'm aware of how selfish suicide is, but when you feel really unwanted and at the same time annoyed by everything, you just kind of want to just stop feeling anything, plus being rejected from every job you've previously applied for numerous times really gets to you because you feel even more unwanted, as well as useless... I mean, it's really nice sleeping in, but when you don't have a real purpose to wake up, why do so?

And don't think to me that the purpose of waking up when you're jobless is to go out and find a job. It isn't. Fuck you. ~grump~

But don't think that this post is about me being upset and wanting horrible things to happen to myself, while I am feeling a little under the weather at the moment, I am actually feeling really amazingly happy, just because I've found two things that I believed would never happen again*, plus I found something extra that I wasn't even remotely expecting! I'VE GOT NEW FRIENDS! People that find me appealing always make me really happy because I'm always second guessing myself and believe that I'm not interesting, so these two months (October and November) have been really amazing, and just plain wonderful.

*A kickarse girlfriend, and a sweet job that pays decently

Blogger has decided to erase all of my pageview stats

Is this for everyone? or am I just special? I'm quite confused because I used to have something like 5k views and now I see only 1... thankfully my other statistic counter still works fine and is telling me that I haven't been living a delusion for the past few years haha.

If I used firefox, and were you, I'd check I wasn't using v16

If I used firefox, and were you, I'd check I wasn't using v16...
I strongly suggest you follow the link underneath and see why, a security flaw as big as this one is not good at all!!

http://blog.mozilla.org/security/2012/10/10/security-vulnerability-in-firefox-16/ 

Apparently there are 105 different types of Pringles in the world

One day, I'm going to taste them all!

Silent Hill: Downpour

Hooray! I've finally finished this game!, I got it on Tuesday the 25th of September (a month later than it should have been) and started playing it on Wednesday the 26th because I had to hand in an assignment on Tuesday... which I didn't actually do until wednesday because I have a horrible time concentrating for some reason... 99% sure it's not A.D.D. though lol... 

But yeah, while I really enjoyed playing this game, I find things that really fucking annoyed me... for instance, the fighting controls, as well as the more than occasional glitching... but that could have also been due to the hot weather over heating the playstation... the loading screens were ridiculously long as well... apart from that, the story and overall enjoyability of the game was great! I really had fun with the game, and even though it got horribly difficult closing the end, if they hadn't done it, the game would have been such a big flop in my opinion...

So, if you've been thinking of purchasing this game, and see if on sale at a game store, I recommend you play it!

It was much better than homecoming horror-wise.

Livestream, I am now LIVE

Yes, that's right, you saw correctly, now you have the chance to talk to me in person!

I am now in possession of a shiny new livestream account, I said that I'd do it one day, and now I am able to! Thank intel for i7 CPUs! honestly, I could not be able to do it without the new chip, the old one (even though it was a quadcore and worked amazingly) would not have even remotely been able to do this well enough!

but yeah, I'll try to get a regular streaming time going, but it will also depend on mood and if I have time to... etc...

Watch live streaming video from Nokel at livestream.com